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We survived the month! Barely.... hanging on by our fingernails and racing time, but now we are on day one of a new UNcrazy month.  Sure, we are surrounded by boxes, and Derrin is the only one whose bed is put together, but all of that is trivial, and can be leisurely chipped away at.

The last four days were about fixing up the old house for renters.  I guess when you live somewhere for ten years, you can become a bit blind to everything that needs to be fixed up.  Every room needed paint.  All the trim and doors needed paint.  All the grout in the whole place (so, so much grout) needed to be thoroughly scrubbed.  And then there was just the regular cleaning you need to do when moving on.  Four days was a tight fit for everything that happened, but we passed inspection with our property management company, so now we are here at the new place and we can try to forget the whole thing ever happened.

Except for somehow in this month, I did something to my shoulder (it could have been the non-stop painting/scrubbing).  My hand has been going numb all month, and now I have shooting pains going down my shoulder, through my arm and bypassing my numb hand to land into my fingertips.  Weird.  My sis suggested a masseuse yesterday, and Derrick suggested his chiropractor "Fabio" (nick-named for his flowing locks and romance novel good looks- his real name is Tony), and I'm thinking I may be calling one or the other today.

I'm liking it at our new place.  It has amazing natural light (or other house could feel pretty dark).  I like that I can't see into any one's windows (although I can see traffic going by on Reserve, but that isn't bothering me like I thought it might).  I very much like that my couches finally made it here, with their soft, never letting you get up again, cushions.  I like that it is already feeling like a home.

As soon as we get the box population down, I will post a few pics.

Moving Beyond

We are so close to being done with this whole moving, fixing up the new place,and then fixing up the old place for the new renters thing.  So.very.close.

Sabrina and DezNik came over to help me with cleaning/painting the old place today.  Soooo much help.  Sabrina is such a fast painter. Daaaang.  She knocked out about 45% of what needs to get done in one day.  And DezNik made my refrigerator look like new.  Awesome- that was one of my most dreaded jobs over there.

While we were getting ready to leave, the subject of a wedding came up.  The whole wedding photography thing was sure to follow.  I have to admit, it's a bit of a sore subject with me.

It's one of those topics where I need to sort of stand outside myself and watch myself talk about it.  Obviously (at least to anyone who has ever heard me rant), I've been a bit hurt and burnt by the whole subject.  I'm not going to make this post be another rant about the whole thing.

Tonight, I watched myself rant (I didn't stop myself though), and I realized I've turned some corner into bitterness.  I don't want that bitterness to live inside me, and I don't even realize it's there until I automatically develop verbal diarrhea when the subject comes up.  The truth is, I do believe everything I am saying is true.  The truth also is, I don't want to care so much.  I want to release all of those hurt feelings that propel the words.

I need to move on.  I've implemented a plan to avoid anymore awkward/either being used or looking like a jerk situations.  Now, I need to just more beyond any of the stuff that helped me develop my little rants in the first place.